I LOVE PAPA I MISS YOU PAPA

 IT WAS DARKEST NIGHT I EVER HAD IN MY LIFE IT WAS MARCH 17 THURSDAY NIGHT DATE CHANGES TO MARCH 18 2010 2. 20 AM WHEN A CALL COME TO ME.I WAS THE ONE WHO  HERD THE  NEWS FIRST TIME.it was call from the transplant icu. when it happIens to me. i blame god why it happens to me.but the fact is always true that it happens one day in every one's life, some part of your life you will  loose your father, or in bad circumstances your dad may loose you.who will suffer definitely who has lost the most.i lost my father i cried a lot, but my mom lost her husband,who not at all cried,who is not yet recovers from the shock, though accepted the things externally but still cant belief she has lost her husband.in this circumstances what should i do.i cant say even, don't worry mom, sab thik ho jayega when i know nothing is rite.i ve been with you dad  every moment of time. i remember when i was going out  to study in patna for my 11th class i had no watch in my hand, u ve  given me your watch saying, beta thik se rehna, koi dikat ho to phone karna.when the watch  chain was broken i ve given the watch to mom to keep it safe saying " this is my first gift from papa" i never knw this watch will stop some day.

Just being a service man u raied your five kids two MBA two engineer,and a docter who is my self,but i always know you wanted one of your son should compete for ias exam but none of us full fill ur dreams.bhiya has told us that he wants his doughter to full fill ur dream, he will raise her like a leader and  we all are hare to support him in what ever possible ways we could.

papa iwill try to full fill all your drems, first and most priorities to be re build our old temple at our native place.thakur jee ki murti ko asthapit karna hai and 2nd to have our own separate house.then a hospital definitely with your names ,and a lot  of thing which i cant list hare.

today i m reveling a fact. i always says i wanted to be like dada je but fact was you were my idiol, i always try to mimic you.i become happy when people says my face matches with you.some says i m true copy of you.i lernt your idilogy in life but i knw haw much fare you were and how much dark i m.you were taller im smaller. but i m happy that your shoes fit me. your shirt fit me.now i m having your mobile with me. your shoes your shirt. all i kept as your blessing from you.

i know you are with me. i wil follows your foot steps.i will miss you but i will love you papa fore ever